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Hello. My name is Jacob. Im 23. Im from Florida. Im looking for a ride anywhere, honestly. I want an actual chance at a future which is something im having trouble finding here.
About me: Smart, polite, respectful, funny, and a good person. I have lived a pretty rough and tramatic life so far, but ive kept my optimism up. My mother was a suicidal bipolar, and my father was a mean drug addict. I was an only child, and even with an IQ of 170+ ive been set up to fail from the beginning.
When I was 16, I fell in love and was dating her for 4 and 1/2 years. We came out here july 4th 2014 because my grandmother had dementia and needed a live in caregiver. My girlfriend was going to do it, but she slowly started to reveal she had no moral fiber. My grandma passed away Feb 2015. So my girlfriend and i get our own place. We were finally adults, it was time. After 4 years of dating, she cheats on me with a guy she met at a job she only worked at for a month. She moved him into our first apartment and kept most of my belongings. I left Arizona and went back to Florida. This was June of 2015.
I stayed with my mother until her illness got the best of her one day and she took too many of her pills. She battled a lot of demons, but her own self doubt was her biggest. This was Dec 2015
At that point I had almost no one. Growing up my parents never introduced me to the few distant relatives I DO have. So my best friend from High School recommends i move to a little town in Pennsylvania where he is from and moving back to. I was totally up for it. I needed a change of scenery after tbe funeral.
So Feb 2016 im in Pennsylvania. Easton, PA to be exact. I loved a lot of things about that place. One of the main things were the jobs I worked during my stay. I learned the art of Crepes and hand tossing pizzas, among many things.
Well things were good for a time! I found out how to be content with myself, which is what a lot of people never attain. Then I fell in love again. Silly me. Her name was Sandra. She was a bit nerdy, a little older than me, and extremely beautiful. I thought i woke up in a fairytale.
I used to play World of Warcraft and she was a good friend on there and we would casually flirt, and as soon as we added each other on Facebook it became so much more. We started a long distance relationship even though my gut said not to. I was in Pennsylvania still, and she lived in Washington State. So she volunteers to fly to me. Ok! Well she spends what was the best week of my life at the time with me. 2 weeks after she goes to her moms in Arizona and I lose contact with her the last say of her trip. We had been seeing eachother for maybe 3 months? Well 3 days later i get a text from a fake number claiming to be her sister saying she is texting everyone in her phone. She was in a wreck and in a coma.
2 things sparked in me at once. The deep down truth and the part that wanted to believe that text. Turns out she was married and has 3 kids. She had always told me she was the man's nanny because his wife died giving birth to their last kid. Which is why he called her mama. It made sense at the time. Hell its still a realistic scenario Idk.
Well I go through about a week of confusion until I allow my self to start doubting her. Its hard to doubt someone you actually love. To believe they could lie on that scale. After some digging I found out even her cell phone number was under her father in laws name in Reno and I found his Facebook. He had a photo of her in a hospital bed with a newborn in her hands.
That was pretty confusing mentally aa well. This all came to an end Mar of 2017. I left Pennsylvania, too many bad memories with her and I couldn't shake it. The only person I had was my father who lives here in Phoenix.
He quit the hard drugs when i was 12. Too little too late if you ask me. He was very abusive physically, but so much more so verbally. He is probably the root of most of my anxiety. Despite all that, i still give him countless chances, but he is too hard to describe about the things he does.
He is an Electrician. He told me he could get me a job with his company if I came out here. So i did. And I got the job. It was good for a bit. Until he got fired. I had no transportation because the job was far south Chandler and I was staying with him in Sun City. He decides to move in with his also former addict girlfriend in their tiny 1 bedroom apartment with no room for me. He had already been charging me most of my check for the gas he spent to carpool, rent for staying with him, food he cooked, oh yeah and he charged me $100 a week for child support he had to pay when i was a teenager because he didnt feel like my mom was entitled to his money.
So my only option at thaaat point was to turn to craigslist like im doing now. Except i posted in rooms for rent. And i found a place with someone who knew my situation and knew that i was going to start working. About a month of staying there and the guy gets really weird and sexual and one night he tried coming into my room when i was sleeping.
I have never felt more unsafe in my life at that point. He got violent when I started ignoring him and trying to move out.
Now im staying with my dads friend and his eldery mother in El Mirage. I was working with my father again doing temp work at various job sites. The reason i was able to move in here was because their lights were getting turned off and they needed money to stop that. Well 2 weeks into the first month the lights go out again. So i pay another $250. 2 weeks go by and its now $350, Plus $125 a week AND i have been buying all the food. Plus when i go to work he will go through my room and steal my things. "Im a grown man. You think i dont know what i can get away with" when I asked about where my moms ring was which was the first to go missing. Turns out im living with a Meth addict who was only paying part of the light bill and smoking the rest. Meanwhile his elderly mother lies crippled in her wheelchair hungry and without electric.
I need to leave. Anywhere. I cant just up and go sadly, I will need a place to stay for at least 2 weeks while I get my first paycheck. I have gotten every job i have interviewed for and im 100% confident. I just need an opportunity somewhere else. Even if it's on the opposite side of Phoenix. Im an amazing cook, but I can also find easy high paying jobs in Electric.
Thank you so much if you actually read all that. Writing it helped me think some things out too. Like I said, im pretty smart. 178 IQ was my last test. Maybe someone out there needs my helps as much as I need
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